You Suck! (And that’s okay)

Okay, it’s been ages since I last published anything. So here I am, on a Saturday morning at 6 am struggling to write something that would matter to someone- any one of you.

So here’s the thing about me. I give up too easily. I quit swimming classes in less than four days, gave up on the story half way that I was planning to publish, stopped posting blogs just when everyone started appreciating it and I’m pretty inactive on my Instagram page where I had decided to post quotes.

Yes, there it is! I am making a list of things I failed at, on a social platform.

But that’s fine. I’ve spent way too many years playing the nice girl. I always wanted to cover my flaws and showcase my good qualities to the world. I wanted to be this sweet friend who would always support you or encourage you, who would never say ‘NO’ if you need any help and who would be available for you 24/7.

Then one fine day I realized that I can’t be myself by showing only one side of my character. It’s both- the good and the bad that makes me who I am and if people are willing to stay in my life they ought to know the whole me.

So let’s see what I suck at.😬 Umm..okay I am pretty low at self esteem. Also I give up too easily. Did I say that before? I guess.

Now, you might think what’s wrong with this person? She shifted 360 degrees from writing blogs about “Love Yourself” and “Let us all be” to writing about her not so positive attitude.

Or some of you would stop reading and say “Why should I read this bullshit, I am not interested to know” And that’s okay!

The reason to write this is because I realized that I wrote mostly about the positive stuff till now, even when I didn’t feel that positive while writing it.

But guess what? Everyone is dealing with some shit in their lives.

So we feel the need to be positive all the time. To see the best in us. To love ourselves no matter what!

But it is extremely important to know what you lack or where you go wrong.It does not mean, you love yourself a little less by criticizing yourself. It just means you are ready to accept your true self and deal with your inner demons.

So instead of saying “I am beautiful” (yes you are) or “I deserve the world” (yes you do) a hundred times to yourself, you can really think and see what can you be better at.

As nobody is perfect here, we all have scope of improvement. Also, there’s no harm in admitting you suck at something. Because guess what, so do I and so does every other being alive (or dead).😊